Since Brett and I knew Brooklyn had brain abnormalities while she was in the womb, a lot of grieving was done before birth. I am very thankful for that! This way we grieved the baby we “lost” and when Brookie was born we got to celebrate the baby we received. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I tried to be super mom for her first three months. I was going to fix her! I was determined! With therapies, research and meds we were going to beat this! I basically killed myself in the meantime. I never slept, I worried myself sick, and all to no avail. I could not fix her :(. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
At three months I gave up control to God (where it should have been in the first place!). I realized she doesn’t need to be fixed and she is perfect just the way she is!! A big load was lifted off my shoulders and I could finally breath!! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I found myself thanking God for making Brooklyn different. Brooklyn is the best baby I could ask for. She is now almost 5 years old and developmentally basically a newborn. She can not hold her head up, sit, talk, or walk. She can make noises, smile, and light up any room she is in. She is soooo pretty! I don’t doubt I kiss her lips 100 times every day! I get a little help from her brothers too 😉 they adore her. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Brooklyn’s journey here on earth will probably be shorter than most; but, she has undoubtedly changed my life more than any other human being.
Brooklyn
